Before I go I wanted to talk about something that hasn't really affected me while i have been writing this blog but does now. Relationships. I'm shit at them. I push people away far too much and convince myself the world hates me and I'm safer on my own but the thing is now I'm not. Now I have someone there but I just make it difficult. Whenever i have a bad day i doubt he gives a shit about me and i try to push him away. Now I'm the luckiest girl alive because he doesn't go. He sits there and puts up with my bullshit.
I don't know if he will ever see this, part of me hopes he does but part of me wants to stop writing and delete everything now in case he does but i have one thing to say and its more for me than him. If you are reading this i just want to say that i know i don't say it much and i know a lot of the time i certainly don't act like it but I love you! I really do. I love the fact you make me laugh, i love how sweet you are and i love the fact that you refuse to leave when i tell you to go. I know it's hard and i know you tell me all the time its going to get better but sometimes i find it hard to believe. I love you and I'm sorry for the shit I've put you through.
Well that's it. I'm signing out again and I won't be checking stats or anything anymore. If you really wanna continue to read me bitch about the world ill leave my twitter down below.
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